Don't be Discouraged

Waiting is hard.

It often breeds discouragement as we believe the longer we have to wait for something, the less likely it is we will succeed. This can be true for waiting for a husband, a baby, the perfect job offer, and the list goes on. Waiting and discouragement thread through life in many ways.

I love reading books. Although I read a lot of non fiction, I love a good novel too. I’ve come to realize, however, that I love getting to the finish but I’m not always a fan of the journey. No, I’m not one of those crazies who reads the last chapter of the book before starting the beginning. But if the journey takes too long, if the hero makes too many mistakes along the way, I’ve been known to skim a few pages. But without the struggle the climax would be less satisfying. The triumph of the hero succeeding is made more spectacular by all the obstacles he had to overcome to get there.

And so it is in reaching our goals. Often we don’t take the time to celebrate or even realize we had a small victory toward our main objective. We instead focus on what others are doing, what others are accomplishing. When we face disappointment, it’s hard to imagine rising above discouragement, working and continuing on although the odds seem stacked against us. But when we reach that goal, the joy is all the greater because of what we’ve experienced along the way. We can look back at specific moments when we could have given up. But look how we came through!!

I love hearing about people who work hard and accomplish their goal. But it has burdened my heart when I see friends and acquaintances getting book deals, opening businesses, living their dreams. I thought, “They’re moms too. When did they find time to do that? I’m so behind.” It is basically a pity party but it makes me doubt what I love doing. I wrongly measure success off of the timing that others were succeeding in. And I don’t take into account the years and tears and sacrifices that they have gone through.

I’m reading the life of David in my Bible reading. Talk about waiting!! He served the king he knew he was going to replace and hid for years from that same king! He knew what God had promised but he waited and waited. Several times David could have killed Saul and sped up the timeline {at least in human eyes}. But he wanted things to happen in God’s timing, not because he acted impatiently.

I would really love this time of quarantine to end and everything to go back to before. I would really love to be published and hold a book with my name on it in my hands. I don’t want to wait weeks or months to go to coffee with a friend. I don’t want to wait years for all my words currently sheltering in notebooks to find their way into the broader world of books. I want to know that there is an end and it will be the ending I want in the time I want.

But that thinking isn’t healthy or biblical. Instead of focusing on what we want to keep from being discouraged, when we find ourselves in the middle of something, we must turn our desires and disappointments and expectations over to God and wait for his timing.

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When Discouragement Hits

**NOTE: I wish discouragement was something we grew out of. Unfortunately, it doesn’t end with a certain age. I wrote this about a week ago and then I received some discouraging news and what I’m writing here was as true for me in last week’s disappointment as it was 20 years ago. Things happen that discourage us and seem to knock us over but the truth of God’s Word still stands. I hope this encourages you and I’m repeating these things to myself in the wake of my disappointment.**

When I was in college, I tried out for a play. It was something a little out of my comfort zone but as a speech minor, I had taken an acting class and wanted to try. Days passed but no callback. I was disappointed but proud of myself for auditioning. Several weeks later, I was talking with my voice teacher and he asked why I hadn’t responded to his email about singing in a recital he was conducting. I hadn’t gotten an email. He said the campus address he had sent it to and I immediately recognized it as the work email I had used over the summer in my campus job. It was supposed to be deleted because I wasn’t working there anymore. I ran to the computer lab and checked the email I hadn’t used in months. There was the invitation to sing in the recital and there - sent days after my audition - was a callback notice. I quickly emailed back explaining why I never made it to callbacks and apologizing. But it was too late. The cast had been set and two of my friends had received the lead women speaking roles.

Seeing that email was more disappointing than all the weeks of not knowing I had been called back. I kept thinking, “Why did they use this email instead of the one I wrote on my audition paper? Why wasn’t this email account deleted? How would I have done in callbacks? If only….”

Life is filled with disappointments. Sometimes they are small and quickly forgotten. Other times they stick with us and we rehearse over and over what went wrong, what we could have done different, if things will ever get better. And while disappointment itself isn’t wrong to experience, our attitude in the face of disappointment can be good or bad.

Usually when disappointment or discouragement strikes, it’s because things didn’t go the way we expected or hoped. We have in our mind how we want things to play out and when that doesn’t happen, we might question what brought us to that point. A lot of times disappointment comes from a result of things we can’t control. Like weather ruining our picnic plans, a missed flight changing vacation schedules, or a sudden illness canceling a fun trip. We know we can’t do anything to change our circumstances but disappointment still weighs heavy when we think about what we’re missing.

Then there’s broken friendships and missed opportunities, things we think “Maybe if…” and try to analyze what happened to bring on this struggle.

God’s people are not immune to disappointment. Isaiah and Jeremiah preached the same message again and again, waiting for the Israelites to listen. Naomi mourned her husband and sons and traveled back to her homeland with discouragement about the future surrounding her.

When we find ourselves in the midst of disappointment for whatever reason, we need to remember we are not ultimately in control of anything. Disappointment often gives way to many other emotions — anger, fear, bitterness — but we can’t let those things control us or our attitude about life. The Bible says that we are to be content {Phil. 4:11; Heb. 13:5} and we aren’t supposed to be anxious or worried {Matt. 6:34; Phil. 4:6; I Peter 5:7}. In the moment, those are difficult things to remember but focusing on God instead of ourselves brings things back into focus.

So did I overcome my disappointment at missing my chance? Yes, and I was given another opportunity the next year. I went to auditions again with no expectations but wanting to try. And I got a callback. And then a second callback. And finally an email with my name listed as the lead female character. It was so much fun to be part of the original musical production that I was cast in. And I’ve not forgotten how disappointment is sometimes the first step to something else.

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